Monthly Archives: January 2015

What I focus on gives me my Reality.



face-deep blue-eyed peep into a sleeping rainbow

face-deep blue-eyed peep into a sleeping rainbow

I never finished the above painting when I was 13 years old & pondering what the future may hold for me… but I am glad, now, that I started it & got as far as I did. There are many lessons I have learned since then, that come to mind behind these same blue-eyes.  Peeping again into the sleeping rainbow of my future, I have learned that what I see is my reality; & what I see is what I focus on; therefore: what I focus on gives me my reality.


Since Spring is when new life begins, I’ve begun making a 90 day action plan to begin March 21st, the 1st day of Spring (until June 21st, the Summer Solstice) ,  for beginning my new C.H.A.R.M.E.D. life :


CELEBRATION: I will select somewhere to celebrate my accomplishments & to plan my next adventures in Commitment… Maybe Surfing lessons in Costa Rica?



I will develop the habit of exercising at least 15min a day 5x’s a week



I will have posted a minimum of 11 blog articles with self-created photos, drawings, videos, crafts, artwork, etc.



I will have formed a Men’s Team



I will have added $50,000 per month to the bottom line of my scrap metal recycling company



I will have read 7 enlightening books



I will have completely unpacked, moved into & ergonomically designed every room, closet, shelf & drawer of my new home

I will have a complete garden plan ready to deploy in my backyard by the Spring Equinox


If it weren’t for the respite of night, we could not see the stars; & therefore would not ponder them.



Begining this Fulfillment Project to live a “C.H.A.R.M.E.D.” life, I figure a good Lifeline (why does it have to be “dead”, since it gives you life to focus?), would be March 21st for the Spring Equinox, This gives me time to select & set my first round of goals in each of the 7 areas of a C.H.A.R.M.E.D. life & then to formulate how to proceed & make action plans.

I just want to sit tonight, & quiet my mind, to focus & begin to puzzle this out.

I am grateful for the elongated reprieve of these longest nights of the year. I have craved quiet contemplation. Cozily sheltered under the dark wing of this long winter’s night, I feel secure in an eddy of escape from the everyday avalanche of angst… That rushing detritus of distraction & deluge of anxious obligation that pelted & swept me uncontrollably tumbling & growing further & more densely buried beneath blurred days & weeks & somehow consumed the last decade of my life.

With the succor of a spiritual mother hen,  a brooding night has nestled me in my nest. Snug in this comfortable solitude, my most private thoughts are safe to play & a clutch of incubated “New Life” ideas begin to hatch.

A birth-wet & fuzzy chattering of hatchling ideas, I do not have it all worked out yet, but I think waiting for perfection has been a key mistake I have regularly made in the past.  I will begin where I begin. The important thing is to start. Who said I had to get it all perfect on my first attempt?

I will enjoy the process.


The 7 Playgrounds of a C.H.A.R.M.E.D. life


Sitting on the sun

“Living a full life” , … I like that phrase :-)

I hear that as “joyful abundance in all areas.”… which got me thinking…

What are all the areas of life in which one might have a sense of joyful abundance?

I want this to be the most fulfilling year of my life… So I have been formulating a sort of “Fulfillment Project” & its time I give it some order…yes, I want to be not just happy, but fulfilled & I want to fulfill on who I know I could be, but…. What am I actually going to DO?

I brainstormed for hours & hours &  enjoyed starting a “Bucket List” & then I organized my list categorically & I noticed that everything fit into 7 distinct categories & I couldn’t think of an 8th, nor do I see a need for one.  I’m really excited about what I came up with !

The 7 Playgrounds of a C.H.A.R.M.E.D.  Life

Celebration: every 90 Day goal cycle should be borne out of a celebratory period & the accomplishment of that new cycle of goals should be celebrated. Ideally, this celebration would be done by crossing off a bucket list item.

Health & Fitness:  I figure I am going to want energy to accomplish all my first round goals.

Art & Soul: this is a category for Self-expression & Inspiration. To make all the other goals a part of who I am being. The idea is to channel self-expression into a measurable creation… A physical manifestation with a momentum independent myself,  that because it exists outside of me, I can give it away to others. — This is the purpose of any Human life.

Relationships: I remind myself: “You are not the thoughts you have or the feelings you feel. You are what you do & what your community says about that. Nothing is real, until you share it with another.” This is the first thing I have written in my journal as I begin this experiment. & just now I added “The most powerful way to do this, is as an invitation for others to play & to collaborate.”

Money: (more journal notes to myself:) “Live in Abundance. Prove this to your ego, by being generous to any source of inspiration. You attract & expand that to which you give yourself.”

Education: ( apparently determined to get my value out of my journal) “Your whole universe is perceived through, navigated by, generated from your mind. Your mind is your universe. Enrich your mind, enrich your life through educational experiences.”

Dwelling: (seriously clocking some journal mileage here:) Home, Garden, Car, office, each task-specific work station — Design any place you dwell ergonomically, like a cockpit. Engineer for maximum efficiency. Decorate your space as an expression of who you are. Try to keep only the missions at hand in view to minimize distraction. Keep Missions highly visible through posted mantras, vision boards, calendars, etc.

I am really excited to share this with my Men’s team tonight!


You can never get anywhere, except from exactly where you are



You can never get anywhere, except from exactly where you are…

…But you can get anywhere from there.

Ever have a silly thoughts like the following?:

  • As soon as I have enough money, I will be more generous & philanthropic.
  • Those group exercise classes seem really great, as soon as I’m in good enough shape, maybe I’ll sign up
  • When I know as much as they do, I’ll participate.

I recognize now, that I have missed out on a lot of life while I planned & researched & organized. I have spent a lot of life preparing for the life I want, rather than living it. Its sort of, as if I’ve been in sniper training & I only have the one shot to hit my target. I have spent a lot of time checking hour-by-hour weather and taking into account anything that could happen and packing for any situation that may arise and scounting out my best spot to set up and calculating wind speed and air density and distance and curvature of the earth and…(ad nauseam)

Meanwhile, I have witnessed very very successful people take a different approach.

I have this business partner, for instance: Someone once asked us both to answer a complex riddle. Well, I am the smart one. It was up to me to prove it.

My partner immediately begins a rapid fire of answers, silly & inane at first. Then he picks up lucky clues from his random shots in the dark and begins to zero in. & while I am quietly & intelligently devising a strategy for analytically applying deductive reasoning….*Clap! …WTH!?!? My partner who was overzealously spitting while spewing desultory answers like an automatic sprinkler, got the answer before I had even tried.

He was hunting with a machine gun while I acted as if I only had one bullet. If we were hunting for food, who do you think would go home hungry?

Want to know the dirty little secret behind my inactive failure & his flurry of action that ended with success?

I didn’t want to look stupid, but in the end, I actualized my fear because I failed. I was so grave & intense about it, as if it were life or death. My identity had been threatened.

My partner had no ego at all. Jumping like an enthusiastic kindergartner, he was enjoying playing a game.

That is the first secret:

Play Games. No one is going to die. So, why not play games that interest you?

Everyone starts somewhere, they say.  Let your ego know that your body is safe; your identity is safe. & pretend for the moment, that wherever you are is not just “fine”, but ponder for a moment, why wherever you are is the perfect place from which to embark on an amazing adventure from where you are to wherever you want to be. No one said you have to get it right. No one said you only get one try.

Where do you want to go?

Ready, Fire, Aim!

B.E. I.N. F.L.O.W. — The 7 Desires that Construct Fulfillment


Inspired by Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, I wondered what, specifically, is needed to feel fulfilled?

I do not claim to know why…I am just distilling my observations of what I know so far about human behavior through history & the commonality of all religions & our great philosophers…

here’s what I came up with:

BE IN FLO”  (referring to the “Flow State” of being enlivened by being fully engaged  )

Based on everything I’ve learned to date, it seems that humans need, above all else, some sense of progress to feel sustained happiness.

The hierarchy of driving human desires that need satisfaction for a person to feel fulfilled, in my view, occur mostly in this order as adults:

1. Betterment — growth & progress
2. Empowerment — to feel capable & up to the challenges that  confront us
3. Individualism — independent freedom for creative self-expression
4. Novelty — perhaps the most uniquely human desire, we are innovative beings who crave the stimulus of assimilating new things; ideally, to inspire the creation of  something original
5. Fellowship — belonging; Interdependence seems to be a fundamental law of nature 
6. Love — perhaps because our existence is so dependent on others, Love seems to be both the fundamental core of our spiritual existence & the ambition.
7. Order — like meaning, we need things to make sense. We need the assurance of dependability. The is a comforting sense of “Home” in a from which place to begin. Ironically, Limits are what give us the focus, to pick a place to begin, for unlimited creativity.





9 Surprising Strategies for Happy Sleep



My bedside so far


This is my bedside, so far. I have that hideously orange towel to absorb the sweat from my gallon jug filled with ice, so that if I am thirsty, I have very cold water (speeds up metabolism) & I do not have to get up, but also, so that, by morning, the urge to urinate helps me to get out of bed & moving. That is just the 1st of my strategies to balance the power of my circadian rhythm.

Here are 9 more:

1. Program my brain to be sleepy, by the associative properties of a routine. (sensory input of: pajamas, dim lights, brush teeth, wash face). I have noticed, that I am often too tired to muster the motivation to brush my teeth & wash my face before bed, so my new strategy here is to dim the lights 2 hours before I want to be asleep & wash my face & brush my teeth 1 hour before my target sleep time, before I am too sleepy. This has the added benefit of having the associated sensations triggering my brain to unwind & get sleepy. It’s fascinating how quickly I’ve come to crave the feeling of washing my face & how it relaxes me.


2. Avoid the blue light of my electronics (phone, ipad, tv, etc.) at night Exposure to blue light (like the sky) before sleep distorts your natural (circadian) rhythm and causes an inability to fall asleep. Light pollution has even been linked to breast , prostate 7 other types of cancers.

 The cause is the photoreceptor in your eyes, called Melanopsin. This receptor is sensitive to a narrow band of blue light in the 460-480nm range which suppresses your pineal gland’s Melatonin production – a hormone not just responsible for your healthy sleep-wake cycles, but also a powerful antioxidant with strong improving influence over ADHD, obesity, thyroid functioning, cancer, depression, learning & memory —>The list goes on, I am clear that I want my body to produce melatonin. Some supplemental melatonin users report an increase in vivid dreaming. Extremely high doses of melatonin (50 mg) dramatically increased REM time and dream activity (* I may experiment with this & report back later)
In 2001 it was discovered that it is only the blue component in ordinary white light that causes melatonin suppression. So, blocking just the blue light is sufficient, versus all light.
I found blue-blocking gel covers for my iPad (Sticky filters by SleepShield fit over your laptop, smartphone and tablet to reduce the amount of blue light that reaches your eyes at night)
& special amber light bulbs. & I downloaded a very cool app called Twighlight.
 The Twilight app makes your device screen adapt to the time of the day. It filters the blue spectrum on your phone or tablet after sunset and protects your eyes with a soft and pleasant red filter. The filter intensity is smoothly adjusted to the sun cycle based on your local sunset and sunrise times.
Then I had an idea! I bought amber safety glasses! By wearing $8 UV coated amber safety glasses I can enjoy  normal evening activities (TV, Computer) while maximizing melatonin production. Again, when my evening becomes amber, this is another sensory input switch for my brain & body to wind down.
My Blue-wave light blocking night glasses
3. Bright Days & Dark nights: The more I study the chronobiology of humans, the more important I understand that it is critical to have complete blackness when sleeping & to get sunlight on my skin & into my eyes as early as possible every morning. (Vitamin D, Grehlin, Leptin, etc.)
My strategy here, is:
—I removed all unnecessary light sources (blinking electronics, glowing clock, etc.) & got a dim projection clock that projects the time on the ceiling corner, so when if I wake & wonder what time it is, I do not have to move to see, but there is no light pollution, interfering with my quality of sleep.
Projection Clock
—I’ve swapped out my night light for an very low light red LED one that only comes on by a motion detector, so i put it near the floor, so it only illuminates my feet & where I step.
—I bought a comfortable eye mask. I bought an alarm clock which mimics sunrise & sunset wavelengths of light. & I have resolved to watch the sunrise every morning.
— My Favorite! new gadget is my Philips Wake-up light! I set my alarm & it mimics the sunrise & slowly increases its light from a dim burnt umber through amber to a sunny yellow & at the time of my alarm it is a bright happy white. The alarms are actual birds chirping! The principle is that our bodies release chemicals and start the process of waking up when the sun hits our eyelids, before you’ve consciously woken up.. This new version also has a dusk simulator, with gradual decreasing light to help you enter the land of nod.
Philips Wake-up light
4.  Consistent Sleep Schedule on the 90 min cycle: The main thing is to have a consistent sleep schedule, even on weekends & holidays. I live a very social life & going to bed too early would be met with conflict. But I also want to start working out & reading, researching, & writing before the onslaught of interruptions of my workday begin, so i need to get up early if I want some quiet, reflective time. & now that I know that all of my biological systems are cued by light, I want to see the sunrise every morning. Also, I like the idea of seeing the sunrise every morning.
The earliest sunrises in 2015 will be June 5th-June 21th, the 21st being the summer solstice of course, at 6:09am.
So I will want a habit of waking up at 6am.
So I aim to be home no later than 10pm to get ready for bed, so that I am in bed to read by 10:30pm, & asleep by 11pm. It is important to be asleep by 11pm, because the body creates a cortisol surge to keep you up & alert after 11pm.  This means, I can be up, dressed, have a little quiet time to  enjoy the sunrise, write & start my day off without the hormonal & mood impact of dodging bullets 1st thing! Every day can start off with peace & intention.
Ideally, I will wake up at the end of a 90 min cycle, subjects report feeling much more refreshed when waking up nearer the 90min mark, the time it takes the brain to go through all the stages of sleep. So, I’ll shoot for being in bed by 10pm & falling asleep while reading around 10:30, would have me wake up at 6am, at the end of a 90 min cycle, 7.5hrs later.
As long as I am asleep by 11pm & up at 6am…
This gives me 7 hours of continuous sleep. To be happiest, researchers suggest 7 hours total sleep per 24 hours (not the prescribed 8-10hours, which causes the over-production of depressogenic substances in the brain.)
  — According to the Bureau of Labor Statistics, the Average American gets 8 hours & 45 min sleep per 24hrs, So I have almost 2 extra hours to be productive over the average person!
If I ever end up staying up late (I get really excited by what I read sometimes or I’m just being bad & not yet done having fun) or have to get up earlier, it is better to get 6 hours, say 11pm – 5am, or midnight to 6am, so that it is a multiple of the 90 min cycle. The extra 15min snooze will only create grogginess & won’t do anything to have me feel better rested.
5.  Supplements: 5-HTP, L-theanine, melatonin, GABA, L-tyrosine, huperzine A, valerian root. It is also better to supplement calcium & magnesium at night. I’ll post more about this later, as this is a very important subject. For now, I will just say that this gives my brain everything it need for me to wake-up smarter than I went to sleep.
6. No Caffeine after 2:30pm.
After 9pm: No alcohol greater than 4oz, No exercise,  No worrying, No working, No eating after 9pm ( with the exception of a lite evening snack of melatonin rich foods like cherries). Everything we consume has a bio-chemical effect. It takes 2 hours for the stomach to completely empty. Caffeine & alcohol in particular, adversely disrupt sleep patterns.
7.  I  sleep on my right side to make it easier on my spine & heart.
8. I have a CPAP machine, (Controlled Positive Air Pressure) that I don’t necessarily need, but it facilitates proper breathing while sleeping & prevents my airways from becoming so relaxed that they collapses & deprive my brain & body of oxygen, by inflating my airways slightly & comfortably with air. This prevents the potential cumulative brain damage from all the times a person stops breathing per night. I also, have a Snore Shield chin strap, to gently keep my mouth closed & force me to breathe through the CPAP.
ResMed S8 AutoSet™ II Auto CPAP Machine
9. I bought a Smart Pillow, ergonomically designed to facilitate proper neck posture while sleeping.



Pal-power & Friendfluence




I’ve been researching the psychology & sociology of happiness. A lot of what I’ve read all seems to tie in directly or indirectly with the types of friends you’ve had or have. We’re social creatures.

I asked myself how I might quantify the degree to which a friend is “Good”. What metrics might I use to measure the value of any social relationship & how, exactly, do those relationships differ from familial, romantic, business, etc? What are the potential costs/risks of a friend? What are the benefits? Practically speaking, If I want to be a good friend, I need to celebrate their birthday, & least some of the other holidays. We’d need to have “hang time”. I would need to be supportive through slumps & offer assistance when & where I can. How many hours per year does one need to budget to live up to what it means to be a “good friend”? How much more is a “best friend”?

This is totally unscientific & I’m just throwing together a guesstimation to find a better sense of perspective, but…

(not thinking about a “friend” or an acquaintance or an associate…)

To be a close friend is at least:

dinner or lunch once a month (2hrs x 12 = 24hrs/yr)

1-2 outings together/mo (4hrs x12 = 48hrs/yr )

1 needs the other = 2hrs/mo (24hrs/yr)

at least 5 holidays & celebrations/ yr ( 20hrs/yr)

text / phone /email , etc. (3-4hrs /mo x 12= 48hrs/yr)

so… I think close friendship is at least 144 hours a year / 12 hours a month / 3 hours a week

Doing a scribbled tally on the back of an envelope,

I think a best friend may be more like…, interestingly, around 365 hours a year  / an hour a day  if you spread it out evenly / 7 hours a week 



I don’t have infinite time & after fulfilling my responsibilities, I have things I want to accomplish…. so given the actual amount of time I have, if I divide it by the time it may take to be a “good friend”, … how many friends could I be a good friend to?

There are 168hrs in a week & you’re going to sleep around 56hrs

say your 2.5hr morning routine & round-trip travel to & from work (1hr) + 45hr work week + 30min/day avg errands = 65hrs a week

if your nighttime routine is 2hrs a night = 14hrs

easily shave off 3hrs a week for just plain head-scratching, distraction, & forgetting what you were supposed to be doing

So, the average person might have as much as 30hrs a week as a total time budget minus all current commitments (family, groups, organizations, volunteering, spiritual practices, projects, etc.)

But let’s assume your friend needs you outside your current interests & pursuits, how much time should you allow to be available socially without sacrificing your own goals & dreams?

30hrs/wk x 52 weeks = 1560 freetime hours a year. divided by 144 = means maybe you could have as much as 10 close friends, but that leaves almost no room for solitary pursuits & how would  handle the likely conflict of a plurality of friends needing assistance in different places at the same time??.

1560 divided by 365 = 4 close friends, but again, no solitary time.

Many things can be done together, & all the research suggests that this enriches experience…. & it is assumed that a large part of compatibility is similar interests… so, let’s say 50/50? So 780hrs divided by 144 = 5 friends.

I declared my mission was:

To serve as a Happy Pathfinder leading others to the access to create maximum benefit for minimum effort & produce exponential results.

so… how to optimize?

My answer : Create a Men’s team of a select 7 men founded on the virtues of fraternity. (If I was a woman, I would create a woman’s team) I’d like us all to meet together for 2 hours each week & at least 1 outing a month, to pool resources & support one another in specifically stated goals. This way we all get the benefits of 7 close friends for far less time commitment, because the time is coordinated & compounded.

I would like the aim of the group to be: How to get more out of life, than we put in.

So I’ve decided to give a working team name of M.E.M.B.E.R #8

because our aim is: Minimum Effort / Maximum Benefit / Exponential Results

& every man will have 7 brothers

& he will uphold the values & commitments our group even if he is the last man standing

& so every man is M.E.M.B.E.R. #8

I’ve invited 3 Good Men so far & we will have our 1st Team Meeting tonight , fittingly on the 8th

M#8 Men's Team

Working more/ Sleeping less, Made me dumber, less productive, sick & …Fat?!?


First thing’s 1st…

In order to live an Optimized life — to get Maximum Benefit for Minimum Effort, Risk & Cost & Produce Exponential Results; it seems most prudent to make sure I’ve mastered the fundamentals.

Energy seems to be the most critical element.  If, as I’ve previously deduced, all things are made possible by constructive action, & action is not possible without the advent of energy, then the most universally essential factor in all endeavors is energy.

Human energy seems to be a function of sleep, diet, exercise, & interest — in that order.

So I’ll begin with sleep:

I experimented with variations of polyphasic sleep (X evenly spaced Y min nap sessions every Z hrs which total less hrs sleep per 24hrs in aggregate vs 1 long session of 8 hours sleep ) all last year & I can sum up my conclusions succinctly: Don’t do it.

I failed with this miserably. Beyond being logistically untenable, like taking naps during the workday & being decimated if you miss a nap… Its not worth the cost. I learned a lot, though. Most unexpectedly, I learned that beyond the predictable physical & cognitive side-effects, when I am tired, I entertain thoughts which are less than honorable. Everything suffered. my decision making was poor, my will power was depleted & I was a zombie, when I wasn’t really really irritable.   Far more costly than one would even expect… it removed far more quality from my life for the few hours a day it gave me in trade. I’m disappointed in this outcome, as I of course wish that I could report that I tested & proved a method of only sleeping 4 hours (or so) per 24 & so, adding 4 more hours (or so) to each day, 28 extra hours a week, — the equivalent of over 36 extra work weeks per year! but…. whah,wah, waaaahhhhhh… total fail!



What I can report is the unexpected opposite:

I’ve recently conducted the opposite experiment: Go to bed early enough to sleep until I’m done sleeping. Interesting that I am often done sleeping after only 7 hours most of the time. In times of stress or healing, I never seem to need more than 8.5hrs.

Quality sleep seems to supercharge my energy & mind. I seem to think faster & clearer. It seems a little counter-intuitive to me, but sleeping a third of my life away, actually has me get more done in a week.

I booked an appointment with Dr. Jason Peck, a board-certified Psychiatrist who specializes in the medical science of sleep. I learned a few shocking facts!:

1.) If you sleep less than 6.5hrs a night, your body:

—over-produces ghrelin (the “hunger hormone”) making me crave sweets & simple carbs

—under-produces leptin (the “satiety hormone”) making me never satisfied

—increased stress levels over-produce cortisol which is known, among other things, for increasing belly fat

see how this may be a perfect storm?… it actually gets worse: all of the above makes you significantly more likely to become diabetic. & it gets even worse…

2.) If you sleep less than 6.5hrs a night, you get dumber… attention, alertness, memory, creativity, problem-solving, etc… name a cognitive function & it suffers; one of the main reasons why is fascinating! it turns out that is what REM sleep is… its your brain organizing all the information you took in. So, in actuality, you take in information throughout your waking hours, but you learn when you sleep!

3.) Sleep deprivation severely compromises our immune systems in too many ways to list here… I got the point Fat, Dumb & Sick = less productive per month.


I am super-fascinated  & have much more research & experiments to do… like learn-nap, learn-nap — see if that defrags my cerebral hard drive & speeds learning… I’ll get back to you on that.


To stay on task—-> here’s my next mission: How to enhance the quality of my sleep? & Experiment with the benefits of power-napping


Mission Possible


mission possible

Impossible is nothing.

Anything deemed impossible, is so called because it can not exist; therefore it is nowhere. That which occupies no space, is intangible; & is said to be nothing. No thing. So “no thing” is impossible.
Nothing is impossible.
Impossibility is made so from there being an absence of energy. An absence of energy is an absence of action.
All things are evidence for the existence of their equal opposites.
Therefore anything is possible through action.

So what possibilities do I want to manifest in my reality? How will I know the right action to take?

This is the point of a mission statement, for me. A mission statement is a guiding line.
^The finer the mission statement, the more portable it is… the faster I can course correct.
In any given moment, I am acting consistent or inconsistent with my mission statement. This kind of quick reference makes productivity possible, which makes all of my dreams possible.

There are plenty of things that I am not dependable for & even more things that I am not particularly good at, but there are a few things that I seem to do well with little effort & enjoy doing:
If you love what you do & what you do helps others & provides for a high quality of life… I think that would be the ideal.
How can I enjoy my life so sustainably, as the sentence above?
What do I enjoy doing that produces value?

I enjoy the sort of deconstructive analysis, that isolates key components. I enjoy distilling the essential essence to increase its potency. I enjoy synthesizing & assimilating in pursuit of optimization. I enjoy acting as a strategist & seeking the most beneficial course for the least cost & minimal risk.



This is my mission Statement:
To serve as a Happy Pathfinder leading others to the access to create maximum benefit for minimum effort & produce exponential results.



& so this blog is born,
made possible through my declaration that it be so…
made reality through my simple use of that which is available to me to serve my purpose…
I am enlivened at the notion that this small set of Intentional Actions may change my life EXPONENTIALLY.

GPS — How I found my Purpose



I’ve really thought about this intently, today.
I feel certain there may be no more important task than figuring this out for oneself.
& I haven’t been at all sure how to go about discovering my purpose, though I think of it like this:
Whether I am a complex confluence of random evolutionary mutations or a vastly precise design implemented by an intelligence of incomprehensibly powerful creative genius; either way, I am the way I am. Nothing could be more fitting than to be a full expression of what it seems I am uniquely suited to do.

So here was my approach: G.P.S.

I asked myself what I do best. I asked myself what I seem to do particularly well without much effort, & even that effort which is invested seems to increase my energy rather than deplete it. I listed all of my talents & skills which energize me & called these my “GIFTS”.
Gifts are meant to be given.

I asked myself “What endeavors enliven me?”
I asked myself “Who are my heroes? What are their vocations?
I listed all the subjects which fascinate me so naturally, that I’ve never bothered to wonder why & called these my “PASSIONS”
All passions are expressions of love. To love life, one must be passionate.

Then I juxtaposed these 2 spheres & in the intersecting overlap, I delineated their commonalities…my calling.

Finally, I asked myself how these GIFTS & PASSIONS could become my means of making a living… obviously, getting paid to do, what I would pay to be doing would be the secret to happiness. Directly, I knew, that to get paid would mean that I had produced value for the purchaser. So then final question was then obvious:
How might these qualities be wholly employed to be of service to others?
What problems could I use my GIFTS & PASSIONS to solve, to be of SERVICE?
Great is a synonym for large. To live a “Great” life, it would have to be bigger than myself. Me focusing on me can not even see all of me, so self-involvement is a small & poor life. The more souls I can engage, the larger my life. The more love & laughter in those relationships, the richer my life.

So there it is, my GPS… the convergence of GIFTS & PASSIONS focused into SERVICE to others.
This is how I found my Purpose…
Now, to live life on purpose.